It was so much easier when we WEREN'T trying....

I'm going insane.  When we got pregnant we weren't even trying yet.  We just thought of it as a surprise blessing dropped into our laps.  Whew! No stressing for months at a time wondering when it would happen.  It was just that easy!
It's only been less than two months since I lost the pregnancy, but it feels like a life time.  My constant waking thought is about fertility cycles, ovulation, and  babies.  I've got my cycles logged on my phone, on the calendar, and in my mind.  This takes the romance right out of making a baby.
Last night I bluntly reminded Brad that we had --uh-- business to attend to for the next several nights.
"How romantic," he replied sarcastically.
What else was I supposed to do? Casually dropping my towel after I got out of the shower hadn't worked the night before. Leaning in close and lingering during quick kisses didn't work.  I'm on a tight fertility schedule here and I don't have time to waste!
By my count, I should be ovulating today, and all I can think about is how unbearable the next few weeks will be waiting to find out if this was our lucky month or not. 
Is there anyway to regain control of my over-active mind?! :-(