It was so much easier when we WEREN'T trying....

I'm going insane.  When we got pregnant we weren't even trying yet.  We just thought of it as a surprise blessing dropped into our laps.  Whew! No stressing for months at a time wondering when it would happen.  It was just that easy!
It's only been less than two months since I lost the pregnancy, but it feels like a life time.  My constant waking thought is about fertility cycles, ovulation, and  babies.  I've got my cycles logged on my phone, on the calendar, and in my mind.  This takes the romance right out of making a baby.
Last night I bluntly reminded Brad that we had --uh-- business to attend to for the next several nights.
"How romantic," he replied sarcastically.
What else was I supposed to do? Casually dropping my towel after I got out of the shower hadn't worked the night before. Leaning in close and lingering during quick kisses didn't work.  I'm on a tight fertility schedule here and I don't have time to waste!
By my count, I should be ovulating today, and all I can think about is how unbearable the next few weeks will be waiting to find out if this was our lucky month or not. 
Is there anyway to regain control of my over-active mind?! :-(

No House Yet :-(

     Well, someone swooped in and bid an outrageous amount on the house we were trying to get.  So that one is off the table.  Brad is pretty bummed.  As nice as it would have been to own a house, I'm okay with the way things turned out.  I'm a big believer that everything happens for a reason, and I believe that this house just wasn't the one for us.  Sure, it would have been a huge step forward for us, but we LOVE our apartment and our current location allows us to use our cars much less.  That's a big plus for me since I walk to work.  We're still looking, and I'm sure we will find the right house eventually.
      On a different note, our balcony garden is coming along beautifully!  I recently blew a ton of money at Home Depot on gardening supplies and now that we're running out of space we're starting to use hanging baskets.  We're also starting to move some of the more resilient plants inside. I'd post pictures but with our computer being dead it's a bit of a challenge.
     XOXO